A warm fall breeze hits the window of my office and I hear a small squeaking sound, beckoning me to open the panes. Calling me to open up. To let go, free fall. I get up and the view outside unveils its beauty to me. Opening up herself like the newly wed girl. Shy but willing, scared but confident.

I watch and my heart races. It skips beats after beats, enthralled and enthusiastic. It has not felt so in months. Since the last time I saw your face. Smiling yet having tears in eyes. The pain of parting, thought of not being able to feel your touch. To breathe your freshness, feel taken by your beauty. I will be back, for you.

I see out of the window and dark clouds gather. I smile feeling the gloom within me gathering. I observe its playful destruction. Slowly killing me inside. And suddenly it stops. Possibly some remnant of my past. I smile again, reminded again and again of my limitations. The want to let go, free fall. Feel the nothingness of 'being'. Random thoughts spawn random ideas and random words. This blog is a result of such. I get up again and go to my window.